Kicked in doors, smashed up cars, knives hoodies, ugly scars!

Greetings goth/punks/emos/loners/creatives/cool types

I've been as they say busy. No more stoopid self pity wallowing in my ***s stains..... I'm doing what I need to do.

Craig - he can just ***k off. No more abuse from that ***ker. Claire - well her text's have gotten a bit milder. No more references to Nine Inch Nails and Joy division. So yeah. I'm happy on the personal level. And btw thanks for asking.

On the music front. Huge news. Slap My Face is Live! With Vocals! yeah! Honest. Also had some news on the collaboration front. Scottish Band Pure Dead Good have been in touch about doing a mix/mash up. They're great. Really angry punk rock engery.

Been listening more to the mighty Rod Thomas - his music is sublime. Pop and paegentry in the same musical world. Love it. And he won best Ukele video of the year! What a guy!

And the mighty Patrick Jones called up - he says there's the chance of a Gig at Hay On Wye! Can you believe it!

Meanwhile it's all gone a bit quite with the UNI. They still have 'issue's' but for the time being at least no one is playing their cards. MMMM.mmmm.

Drop by the myspace for me - www.myspace.com/defianceofgod or of course the lovely Rod

www.myspace.com/rodthomasmusic and while there hit the great scots

www.myspace.com/puredeadbrilliantuk you know it makes sense!

Love and yeah - I do bite for anyone who's enjoyed the track

D x

Fine white powder is uncool. It ***ks you up!

Afternoon snowbound goths/freaks/emos/punks..

Being a goth in the snow is not fun. My mascara has frozen and I can not for the life of **d get my crimpers to improve my hair. Fizzy, fuzzy mess in the frozen snow....straight or even remotely crimped waves of wonder - this girl does not possess. www.myspace.com/defianceofgod

Can't go out. Can't go shopping, can't get to a practise, can only sit here and wonder what the rest of the civilised world is up to. Claire has been in touch. Another one of her semi threatening txts. This one was a list of songs and bands. Dead Kennedys - Holiday in Cambodia. Joy Division Dead souls. Dead or Alive - You spin me round......you gettit? Yeah. Like a hole in the f***king head!

Craig is snowbound in Brecon - apparently doing some yomp up Pen Y Fan in the minus twenty snowstorm.

Aaaagh. Can't do the remixes up at LSD High's in Abercynon - under two foot of snow! AAAAGGGh.

Like I said - snow is uncool. It's very very un-rock and roll - fine white powder that ***ks up your life.......just like well you know what....

D x

Best new act of the year - fact - Rod Thomas

Hey Goths - I'm gonna surprise you all....

I know it's not coool to brag about someone else on your own blog, but hey. Last night, I was feeling low. I mean real ***king low. I'd had a major bust up (again) with the UNI, they're so dead set on expelling me....so anyway - I'd drunk a quarter bottle Smirnoff and I was dozing on my bed....radio on low....

OMG - was I dreaming this or what. I heard the best Radio session ever - there was guy on called Rod Thomas - doing what I can only describe as one man band, New Folk Disco ....not exactly conventional, but the guy had the most heartfelt wonderous songs, I've ever heard. Went straight to his myspace site. www.myspace.com/rodthomasmusic he's awesome, Welsh too, from Neath? And just back from LA working with Boom Bip (Neon Neon).

Dunnoh, his music just made me wanna cry and laugh at the same time. Just do yourself a favour and listen to his tracks. He's got a new album out, Until Something Fits. It's awesome.

My own life is ***t, but it's kinda Nice to know others are gonna be huge and successful - even if i don't ever make it. You know the URL. www.myspace.com/defianceofgod

Enjoy the find of hte year, Rod thomas.

D x

Blue Monday

Welcome aboard goths/loners/emos/punks and all

It's a good ship that knows the safe harbours, and a wise captain who knows when to run for home. I'm running and I'm running scared.

Life has become a little too unpleaseant. Not getting on at home, band fragmenting, stalker in the States - Claire and stalker here - Craig. What am I doing wrong? Am I just a magnet for weird sh** and ***ked up loons? Or as they say is there somehting else? Is it me? Am I the cause of this complete and utter weirdness? Dunnoh. Just being alive makes me paranoid? So what does that say about me? Maybe somehting happ3ened in the past, somehting bad just happened and I got caught up in it? Something sinister, someting nasty....maybe my imagination is running away with me? Dunnoh. All I know is my nan is ill and that's making me worried. She's been my surrogate parents since the divorce and hey, without Hilda nothing would be the way it is, She bought me my first guitar! I mean how cool is that! So yeah, I keep hearing on teh raido that today is Blue Monday - the most miserable day of the year. Andy you know what. I kinda agree. Yeah. I really do.

Lots of offers to collaborate through on www.myspace.com/defianceofgod so we'll see. I also had a note from Patrick Jones about collaborations on his new CD. I'm hearing some weird rumours about big stars. Honest. Being on the same record. Billy Bragg. Martyn Joseph. Amy Wadge. Henry Priestman and me - yeah, Defiance of God.

Let's just hope blue monday becomes sunny tuesday. Eh.

D x

Slap My Face - lyric for you to use!

Hello peeps D's here and all is good in gothworld.

Slap my face - This is it. Below are the lyrics 4 you to use with the backing track. Just do anything however crazy you want and mail it to me via myspace or Defianceofgod@yahoo.co.uk

The music is online and accessible via

www.myspace.com/defianceofgod

I'm gonna host the best six through Jan/feb/march 09 - tell all your friends this is your chance to make it - if you're in a band - this is 4 you. Goth Factor/Emo Factor/Punk Factor the real X factor

Slap My Face - Lyrics - Copyright D x (Defiance Of God)

You don't wanna talk - you just wanna kiss

no time 4 luv in the city, 4 a girl 2 miss

undress me in your mind - you stoopid fucker
your gonna have 2 pay if you wanna fuck - her

I'm not the one - you're gonna regret

I'm the one - you're gonna want next

Kicked in doors and smashed up cars

knives, hoodies, ugly scars

txt me l8r - film my mate

slap my face - u mess with fate

don't cum too close - u sick - I might just bite

I'm yr worst bad dream - straight outta the night

u waste my precious time, and steal me clothes

I'm not yr easy lay - going comatose

I'm not the one youre gonna regret

I'm the one you're gonna want next

Kicked in doors, smashed up cars

knives hoodies, ugly scars

txt me l8r - you can film my mate

slap my face - u mess with fate

Fed up - with all your stupid pointless stares

nothing u can say or do - gonna make we wear flares

undress me i your mind you shallow sucker

your gonna waste yr time if you wanna fuck-her

I'm not the one you're gonna regret

I'm the one - you're gonna want next

Kicked in door, burnt out cars

knives, hoodies, ugly scars

txt me l8r - film my mate

slap my face - you mess with FATE!

Share and enjoy

D x

Defiance of God confirmed for Patrick Jones CD

Gothworld is still and almost silent.

The halls are quiet and I have returned to my nan in Pontypridd. It's a mix of comforting familiar and sickening commerial horrors, but frankly at least I'm not in that hell hole of Uni. The last week was unbearable. I managed to avoid Rob my tutor for the entire week, doing all the work he's asigned to me. It's the only way at moment. Keep my head down, keep myself on my course and hope that sanity returns in the New Year and then, maybe I'll be able to keep the band going and stay doing my degree.

I've had some interesting news. Patrick Jones has agreed that Defiance Of God will appear on his new CD. Yeah. How cool is that! We're gonna do a track or even two on his new record. I'm sure this is gonna cause a ***t storm in the new Year since he's the one everyone is trying to ban, but most agressively Christian Voice are after his blood. Given our name - Defiance of God, well I'd guess the X Voice barmy army are gonna blow their load so to speak... www.myspace.com/defianceofgod

Anyway. I did get a card from Steve. And two texts from Ade and Mark. So maybe the God will get their ass together for 2009. Myspace has the lastest intstrumental - Good Dream Bad Day so who knows we might must up some interest.


I'm gonna post till Tuesday and then as befits all rock stars - I'm gonna have a day or two off. Eat turkey, watch nan and grand-dad stuff their way through Turkey sarnies and if my mood lifts, I'm gonna cook some Turkey Curry! How rock and roll is that!

Craig gave me a present. Some lovely perfume - he's headed back to Surry for Xmas with his Stepdad - seems we've got a fair bit in common after all. Dunnoh - he's still the one ***k I regret from this year.

D x

Good dream - bad day - new song on myspace!

A long long time ago I remember I was a child and Christmas was the most wonderful time of the year - it was like the best party you've ever been to, except everything was free and no one puked on your clothes.

Now I walk the earth cold and weary like an ancient statue. The party's over and the puke's frozen on the pavement.

Where did the joy go? Where did my band go? I dunnoh.

I found a copy of a demo I made for Steve. It makes me think of him and all the great times we had with the band - Good Dream - Bad Day. I took the vocals off cause they made me cry. www.myspace.com/defianceofgod It's kind of like Eddie Vedder stuff from Into The Wild soundtrack - (I love that record..)

Enjoy this while it lasts. The track is live on myspace. Oh and there's something else. I've got a secret for you all. But someone needs to ask me what it is. If I do hear that request I shall share the good news.

D x