Sadness makes the heart grow older

Evening goths/punks/emos/freaks/loners but never losers.

It's been a shi** couple of weeks. No bull. BAD. On a personal front I'm just not gonna go into it in too much depth but somethings happened two weeks ago that just makes me feel so vulnerable. So small. So incomplete.

I'm welling up just now thinking bout it. Can't express it all too clearly except know I now, suffering is best viewed from the outside - and understand that pain is something that's making me force myself to grow up. When a situation is beyond yr control u feel helpless. All I know is the next few weeks will be bad and then it might just get worse.

Everything was ticking along just swimmingly, we'd done 3 rehearsals for the Cwmaman Music festival and then....freefall. You only know how much family means to you when it's removed. ***K....and ****king ****

Just doing the best I can right now. Listening to mellow music (Noah and whale first days of spring) and just putting 'it' all in boxes. Boxes that I will either choose to keep shut or boxes I will open one day far off in the future.

Speaking of time travel. A year ago last march I met Charlie Fink ...and I have to say within two minutes of him walking into the room I knew he was going 2 be famous. Like Real famous. Glad to know my powers of perception aren't weakening. If anyone can heal a broken heart Charlie can..... the album has some mixed reviews...but if don't make you cry - u ain't never had yr heart broken...

Sadness makes the heart grow older, that's what I say, and this old heart of mine is weary, heavy with memories of love too fleeting and love shared but incomplete. www.myspace.com/defianceofgod

Good luck to all bands and attendees at next weeks Cwmaman Music Festival. See you all next time = play it loud for us!

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