Defiance of God confirmed for Patrick Jones CD

Gothworld is still and almost silent.

The halls are quiet and I have returned to my nan in Pontypridd. It's a mix of comforting familiar and sickening commerial horrors, but frankly at least I'm not in that hell hole of Uni. The last week was unbearable. I managed to avoid Rob my tutor for the entire week, doing all the work he's asigned to me. It's the only way at moment. Keep my head down, keep myself on my course and hope that sanity returns in the New Year and then, maybe I'll be able to keep the band going and stay doing my degree.

I've had some interesting news. Patrick Jones has agreed that Defiance Of God will appear on his new CD. Yeah. How cool is that! We're gonna do a track or even two on his new record. I'm sure this is gonna cause a ***t storm in the new Year since he's the one everyone is trying to ban, but most agressively Christian Voice are after his blood. Given our name - Defiance of God, well I'd guess the X Voice barmy army are gonna blow their load so to speak... www.myspace.com/defianceofgod

Anyway. I did get a card from Steve. And two texts from Ade and Mark. So maybe the God will get their ass together for 2009. Myspace has the lastest intstrumental - Good Dream Bad Day so who knows we might must up some interest.


I'm gonna post till Tuesday and then as befits all rock stars - I'm gonna have a day or two off. Eat turkey, watch nan and grand-dad stuff their way through Turkey sarnies and if my mood lifts, I'm gonna cook some Turkey Curry! How rock and roll is that!

Craig gave me a present. Some lovely perfume - he's headed back to Surry for Xmas with his Stepdad - seems we've got a fair bit in common after all. Dunnoh - he's still the one ***k I regret from this year.

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Good dream - bad day - new song on myspace!

A long long time ago I remember I was a child and Christmas was the most wonderful time of the year - it was like the best party you've ever been to, except everything was free and no one puked on your clothes.

Now I walk the earth cold and weary like an ancient statue. The party's over and the puke's frozen on the pavement.

Where did the joy go? Where did my band go? I dunnoh.

I found a copy of a demo I made for Steve. It makes me think of him and all the great times we had with the band - Good Dream - Bad Day. I took the vocals off cause they made me cry. www.myspace.com/defianceofgod It's kind of like Eddie Vedder stuff from Into The Wild soundtrack - (I love that record..)

Enjoy this while it lasts. The track is live on myspace. Oh and there's something else. I've got a secret for you all. But someone needs to ask me what it is. If I do hear that request I shall share the good news.

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The Moon is a harsh mistress

Gothworld is in crisis. It's all gone wrong. I used to have a band - now I just have unfinished demos and a myspace site. www.myspace.com/defianceofgod

The moon is apparently larger in the sky tonight than it has been any time in my lifetime. Clearly it's a full moon. (If only I could see it through the rain) And we all know what a full moon does to the fairer and stronger sex. It's been waxing (growing) for the last week and for the last week I haven't slept more than three hours per night.

Maybe that's why my life is falling apart. Maybe it's the moon. It's ***ked up my Uni, it's fu**ed up my band and now - the tidal forces are pulling my muscles apart.

Dunnoh. All I know is if this gets any worse there's no scope for escape. Had the worse text of my life today. Steve - he says forsayers of doom are through to the 1st round of Orange Unsigned 2009. ***ker. ***t. He was my best friend and partner in rock and roll domination. Now he's a traitor. But what does that make me. A witch? A saint, a sinner condemned to rock and roll damnation......

Am gonna drink myself to sleep one more time. I don't feel so much sorry for myself as numb, just unable to feel any more. Dunnoh. Pour me another Jack Daniels fine sir!

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Band on the Run? Poet on the pyre!

Goth world is a bad place......jingle bells my ****

Steve's gone awol. Mark and Ade don't wanna bother. Looks like the band's into a forced period of rest. www.myspace.com/defianceofgod

Feel dumb. Feel numb. Feel blind. Feel Deaf. Feel sick. Feel like an empty chest with all my treasures thrown to the four corners of the winds.

Guess I've been hoping for a change. A change of spirit. I want to see things differently. To believe in the power of good.

But no matter how hard I look - I'm just not seeing any proof. Or am I? Patrick Jones has been on the TV today. Seems like Christian voice were hounding him out of yet another reading at Borders in Cardiff. Shame since from the mails he's sent me - looks like Defiance Of God have an open invite to appear on a CD he's making. But all the ***t he's getting - through Poetry. I mean - come ON! What's going on in the world? Seems like no-one wants to hear the truth any more. Just a sanitised consumer safe version that certainly won't offend anyone, but means, and I mean means Sweet NOTHING>

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